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What would you do when you are under the pressure?

I would eat some snacks, cry in private, yell, scream at KTV, or cook.

But I have found something weird, when I am under pressure.

I especially feel lonely when I am under it and would like to be in a relationship.

That's why I met my ex.

It's not so fair to him because we became a couple when I needed someone to give me a hand.  That year, I just changed my job and had been to a new place, there were so many things I have to learned quickly and adopt to the environment.  Meeting new colleague, preparing new material and making phone calls almost every 2 weeks was too much for me, besides I also had a part time job at night.  During that year, I almost worked more than 12 hours a day.

Yes, I got good paid, but I am not so happy as usual.

I needed someone to love me.

I needed someone who can support me.

I needed someone who saw me floating could give me a hand.

Suddenly, I found my ex was always with me because we had talked on the phone every day.

I should stop if I didn't have any feelings for him,  but I didn't.

I am selfish, not considerate, not caring...don't even think about future. I just say yes because I needed someone to be with.

Now, I have to say I am sorry and I deserved it.